So 10:30 on August 5, is not what I would consider the most noteable time for someone to start blogging, but then I am not typically a noteable person. I have thought about doing this for a while now, and thanks to a friend of mine and her courage to pursue her dream, I am going to pursue mine. (thanks mary!)
I am a Christian, child of God, daughter of faith, believer of the resurrected Christ who is the ONLY truth I will ever need. After that description, anything else, any other words I write are small in comparison. However, I am also a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a sister in-law, daughter-in-law, cousin, student, and woman. I am sure I left out several of the other hats that I wear, but I am jsut as sure that anyone reading this would get the point.
In case you are wondering I do not have an intended audience in mind. Why would I? I have no desire to share this blog sight with anyone. It is more, umm, theraputic than anything else. As a long time journaler and writer for relieving emotions this seems to be a natural progression, right? Ok, maybe not. Maybe putting your innermost thoughts and musings on an open book to the world isn't the wisest thing to do but here I am doing it anyway.
My beloved husband is snoring away behind me and reminding me that I am the only one in the house awake. the reason I am awake, I hurt. Not just my joints, shoulders and knees and hands, but also on the inside. I am hurting for family members that are hurting. I think part of me may be selfishly wallowing in that hurt, becuase it feels good to feel something, but I also KNOW that I am supposed to give that hurt over to God. So my selfeshness is two fold along with my disobedience. Funny how typing that out makes me feel the need to stop and pray. Seek His forgiveness.
I'm sorry Lord, I should hand these mind and heart burdens over to you and quit trying to handle them myself. You are the one who is taking care of them anyway-I just keep interrupting and putting my two cents in when you really don't need it. So I ask your forgiveness and pray that you will forgive me. help me to turn from my selfish desire to dwell and worry and wallow and instead to keep my focus on you. Awesome and wonderful Lord. In your precious sones name, Amen
And with that done I can feel my eyse getting heavier. The pain is not subsiding, but I would rather suffer in the warmth of the bed with my husband than typing at this silly computer.
GoodNight and God Bless!
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